A night for thinking

Just another nite dave and i like to go out on the porch and sit in the cool air and just sort out problems big or small yes i said problems not friggin issues i hate that word lol .
Well to make along story short they are going thru my mom and dads stuff yes material . And i am to go down in awhile and go get what they would like me to have
being that my nerves cant take the drive and david still being sick with congestive heart failure and fluid in the lungs well its a disaster waiting to happen.
I am thinking out loud here when i say ive seen what can happene when someone dies and people go thru things greed sets in, I refuse to be like that,i will accept what they said i could have and be grateful for it and go from there but like we had discussed . They will bring it to me i will not be blamed for grabbing this and grabbing that just to proove i can.
i have good memories some not so good but thats ok this is making me stronger and its my turf well ours lol.
We dont have much but thats ok there is a roof over our heads, and we are room (especially when i have a hot flash) you better runnnnnnnnn.
Ty for letting me go on probably to you about nothing.To me it was good to vent.
I try to respect my people. it is hard to do so but i am trying. i am trying to forgive and forget. it is hard but i am trying . I am a survivor and have succeeded
Blessings my friends ty for listening Sparky

the rune Breakthrough for today

I was going thru my tarot cards found some i forgot i had and realized i hadnt had a meditation time in ages . I picked my Runic Cards by Ralph H . Blum. (and was thrilled to find its a first edition) nonetheless thats not the neat thing

The neat thing was the card that fell out of the runic deck aka not stones was, BREAKTHROUGH aka Dagaz ,Transformation ,Day

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As stated in the book rune number 22 , 2+2=4 a higher numerological number meaning in short

the builder, foundation, stability , patriarch earth justice ability law ,tradition etc

the poem hit me to the card more than the meaning but i will write it to

Dagaz

down the cathedral aisles

of deep and ancient forests

bursts the morning fire.

Take heart, my Beloved,

What is Divine

cannot be seperated

from its source

This rund is the funial rune belonging to the cycle of Initiaition,this siginifies in short that there will be a major breakthrough or shift aka change i call it , a complete transformation in attitude aka change, a 18o degree turn of event or events are to happen if we observe the circumstance of events around it, they are so radical we will no longer be able to live the ordinary life as we no it now. it has to what i feel siezed at the right timing moment . which takes tons of trust basically the darkness is behind you daylight has come.....................

There are many things going on in my life now that are scary and changing i dont know what the outcome will be but moving is one, as far as movin to another home, i hope this rune speaks to you . huggs and blessings sparky aka jackie

LOREENA MCKENNITT THE MUMMERS' DANCE

Yemaya Assessu - Deva Premal

Cat gives a cardiac massage to his injured girlfriend

this is awesomely sad and beautiful at the same time

Patagonia - Deep forest - Forest Hymn

Deep Forest - Sweet Lullaby Natural Trance Mix